I suppose I should be posting. There is a lot going on in my mind right now and other than that I just feel so tired. I feel like the whole last week of my life is a big hazy blur. Some part amazing and some parts horrible. Today has been going better. I posted some pictures over there on flickr from my date last night.

I would go into details about what has been going on, but it is relationship based and I try to keep marital issues off my site as much as I can help it.

I am optimistic though and I am sure that things will go back to being great again.

Tonight I am going to see a musician named Scott McKenna play. I’m really excited about this. He is so good! It would be hard for me to be more jazzed about that.

I’ll bring my camera once more and take pictures. Can you believe how much I have been uploading lately? Me either. It makes me really happy though. I’m glad I will have all of these memories in print. I am waiting to get a bunch of pictures I really like and I am going to print them out and frame them. I think I will be really pleased about having these later in life.

I know I wish I had a lot more from eallier on in my life. I have a bunch I want to upload eventually. Perhaps I’ll get to that this coming week. Old pictures of me.

I think poetry is for when you have things deep inside of you that you need to say, but you just can’t. When you write a poem you can use symbolism and all that and while it looks very pretty the whole world doesn’t know exactly what you are thinking or feeling. I just really wish I could write some poetry today.

I wish I wasn’t so awful and I didn’t create problems for myself. I wish I was a better person and I wish I wasn’t so scared of the truth.

I’m sorry I’m being so cryptic for those of you who don’t know me in real life and even for those who do. I just needed to write something, anything to get some of my feelings out.

I can’t wait till work is over today, because I’m so stupid and sensitive and I keep crying and it’s not even fair that I’m crying because aren’t I the one that did something wrong?

I just want to see my friend Jayleen tonight because I want to talk to someone who won’t look at me like I’m horrible…and I don’t think she is going to be around.

I also took some pictures of myself crying because that is what lonely, sad people do I guess. Flickr for those.

…I guess that’s it.

UPDATE 4/24/2007 @ 4:29 pm -

Hello everyone! I didn’t have time to write a full entry today. I have been so busy. If you look through my Flickr pictures over there on the right you’ll see I have been doing a lot lately. Woo! I just wanted to say thank you for all the sweet comments. They really brightened my day. Things are going a lot better now and tonight I am going on a date with The Mrs. Woohoo! We haven’t done that in a long time.

So I will attempt a real update tomorrow. Thanks for sticking with me.

Oh my poor neglected website. So sorry to be so brief with you. I do have to say I’m surprised at the comments from my last two posts. I talk about a movie I hated and I get a decent response. Needles going into my body and leaving perminent results and I get crickets. (Except for you Kyle).

Don’t mind me. I’m just a little cranky. Things have been interesting low this past week. Not all bad, just interesting. I do have some more pictures to put up. I’ll try to do that later today.

Since I know the internet would love to know what I am having for lunch I will tell you! A Coca-Cola Cherry Zero and Sour Cream & Onion Pringles! The snack of people who are just the tinest bit depressed*.

* Or, you know, those wacky people who are supposed to be medicated, but aren’t so anything that doesn’t make them feel all warm and happy can make them feel depressed. It’s fun living in my head people. You should visit.

I finally got my tattoo on Saturday. Wow. I don’t know what took me so long. I began the process of designing this tattoo in September of 2005 and I came up with the concept about 2 years prior when I saw a woman with a full sleeve leaf tattoo.

It is smaller than I had imagined it. I pictured it being a ¾ sleeve. I was really hoping to get through at least the outline. I was amazed when it was so small that I could get the whole thing done in one 3 ½ hour sitting.

I’m always so weird when it comes to people asking me why I get the tattoos or what they mean to me. I always seem to make myself sound like I have no idea. The thing is that my tattoos always have such deep extensive meanings to me that it is difficult for me to summarize how I feel or make it make sense.

I like the idea of leaves blowing in the wind because to me living in the Northeast nothing is more beautiful than fall leaves. They are just gorgeous. I wanted to capture a little bit of that feeling of fall. There is always crispness to the air and special things to do that make me feel so good about life.

Leaves and the changing seasons also remind me of the cycle of life. Often times I get scared or nervous about death and the leaves remind me that everything has a purpose and that even death can be beautiful. Everything happens for a reason.

One of my most significant memories involves the fall and leaves. I thought I had a blog entry detailing what happened that day, but it was just before I started blogging. I do have an entry from a year later when I was remembering it all. It was about me dealing with the death of The Mrs.’s Grandmother who I had come to love more than my own Grandparents. When she died there was this big void and as silly as it sounds I was able to find peace about it one day while driving through the falling leaves.

So there is a lot of thought that went into the tattoo. It went through a few drafts and it was going to be Japanese maple and Ginkgo and then I had her change it to leaves from around my area. Then it had stars and then we took those out and then I went back to the maple and Ginkgo idea.

I was surprised at the darkness of the piece, but the more I looked at it the more I feel in love with it. It just feels right. It feels like it was something that was always supposed to be there.

I can’t wait to get more done to it. I had thought about immediately starting on my spring flowers ½ sleeve on my right side, but I think there is more to be done on my left side. I’m excited to get started on the new design.

Oh and if you are in the market for a tattoo and anywhere near Gettysburg, PA you must go to Chrome Gardens. I would have never thought it was possible to have such a nice relaxing tattoo experience. Stacy totally put me at ease and I felt calm the entire time. I loved it! I can’t wait to have them do more.

Marriage is all about compromise. There are things that you don’t really want to do that you do anyway because either they need to be done, it will make the other person happy or both. It is also about putting up with things that you do not like.

The Mrs. has a lip ring. I liked this lip ring for perhaps two weeks. After those two weeks I began to strongly dislike it. It was always in the way. I didn’t like the way it looked and I did not like being poked every time we kissed. Even when it wasn’t poking me as we kissed it would clank against my teeth.

Then a while back in 2003, right before I started blogging, she picked me up from work and she had just changed her lip ring. On the ride home we proceeded to break up and while I know the lip ring did not cause the breakup for some reason every time I really look at it I am reminded of that time and how horrible I felt. We ended up kind of seeing each other on the side and didn’t get together again officially until March the next year.

So I went from disliking the lip ring to downright hating it. I openly abhor it. So when it was no where to be seen on Friday morning I wasn’t too upset. The Mrs., however, really loves that thing so I promised her that if she couldn’t find it I would buy her a new one at the tattoo place tomorrow.

She then wants to know how I would feel if she left it out forever. I would be elated. That would be fantastic! There is a catch, a compromise if you will. I have to give up something in return. What can I give up? I only have my ear lobes pierced. I am already attempting to give up both soda and alcohol. I am perplexed. We talk about it for a while and I still can’t think of anything. Drat!

As we are leaving for our cars I remember the Monroe piercing I have been thinking about getting for a few years now. Wasn’t The Mrs. really in love with the idea of me getting that? I think she was.

So I ask if the Monroe piercing would be good enough. She replied with, “Yes, why yes it would.” Crap. I mean I want the piercing and all. It’s on my 30 things to do before I’m 30 list. I am, however, scared to death of needles. This is no nice thin, small tattoo needle. This is the mother of all needles. It’s HUGE and hallow! It willremove a tiny circular piece of my face. If I take it would I will have a scar there for the rest of my life. It’s a lot to think about.

Still I do really hate that lip ring so I decide to go ahead with it. It begins to occur to me that this must cost money. I contact the tattoo place. They let me know it will be $45. Not bad, but still $45 that I don’t really have to spend.

I decide to wait and see how much the tattoo will cost.

The entire time I am getting my tattoo I am debating with myself over whether or not I will actually get it done. I’m such a wuss about needles, but it’s something I have been wanting to get done since I was 18. I decided that if the balance on my tattoo was less than $250 I would get it done.

After the tattoo was complete I went down stairs to pay for it. The balance was $215. I would be getting that Monroe. I let them know what I wanted and I prepared myself for it. After about 10 minutes I was invited into the piercing room. Linda sat me down and talked to me a little about the piercing and what she would be doing. She had me lay down and close my eyes. It was done in about 15 seconds and it really didn’t hurt that much. I was thrilled.

So I will now be healing both a Monroe piercing and a tattoo. That is the downside. I also won’t know if I really like it until I see cute jewelry in it. Right now I have the longer barbell that they need to use when they pierce it. It’s supposed to be longer because there is a lot of muscle right there and it swells. Mine has barely swollen at all however so it has been quite a pain.

The Mrs. was shocked! She never expected me to do it. The hard part will be the next two weeks while I have to keep it clean and safe from infection. On the way out of the studio The Mrs. gave me her lip ring and let me throw it into the street. It was a good feeling. It felt like what marriage is all about.

Tattoo story will be up tomorrow!

I can’t even imagine how tired of hearing about this you must be, but I am an idiot and I need to share my idiocy with the internet.

I’m sure you remember my sinus infection? You know, the one that began in October that I was treated for in both January and February? It’s back again.

I’m really just not in the mood. I’m not. I have a trip to Gettysburg coming up this weekend where I will be getting a huge tattoo on my arm. It’s my own fault though. I stopped taking the medication long before I should have. That is why I am an idiot.

So sometime today I am going to be driving to Wal-Mart to pick up my next batch of medicine. It’s just so hard for me to commit to taking medication. I don’t take painkillers at all. I don’t take cough syrup. I don’t even use cough drops for crying out loud. Prescription medication is a little intense for me.

The other thing that’s bugging me is that I had to buy a new set of tires for my car, Lucy. They are putting them on today. It was also out of alignment so I had to do that as well. To me this is like taking $400 out of the bank and setting it on fire. I’m really not a fan of putting money into my car. Oh and I found out that my tires were to bad to drive on while I was getting my oil changed so add that on as well.

Since I have the trip and tattoo coming up I have to put it on The Mrs.’s credit card, which really leads to the fact that I can no longer buy the two Superhero necklaces that I planned to buy next week. (She opened the store back up temporarily and then she is going to close for good once the necklaces sell out so chances are I won’t be getting them at all.) I had decided to get Tropical & Passion.

Right now I’m just really feeling blue. I know things will be fine and none of this is a really big deal…I was just excited about everything coming up and now I will be sick for the trip with no new upcoming jewelry. Boo.

Drinking Jamba Juice!

Originally uploaded by SparklieSunShine.

I finally uploaded my pictures from my trip to NYC. We needed to empty out The Mrs.’s camera for our trip to Gettysburg this weekend. There are about 200 new photos up on Flickr many of them featuring Jamba Juice a few of them feature me a little underdressed or holding interesting items from a sex toy store.

(Okay it’s only two of me underdressed and one of me holding a sex toy. The rest are rated G. Enjoy!)

Why, Angela? Why would you post a picture of The Mrs. holding your panties online? Well it seems that The Mrs. was not very happy when she saw this post and as pay back I had to agree to post a picture of her holding up my undies for the world. Bonus! They aren’t even panties that I like. Enjoy!
Also because of I had to agree to put a picture of The Mrs. holding up my undies because she was none to pleased to see her own on that post. Sorry hun! That picture was just so funny. So in any case here is a picture of The Mrs. holding up my undies. She is freshly out of the shower here.

Last night I watched the movie Children of Men and I really didn’t like it. To the point where I though, well there is an hour and a half of my life I won’t get back. I was surprised at how much I didn’t like it because it had received very good reviews. I checked on Amazon this morning while listing the latest books I read to see what other people though. Now I hate the movie even more for making me be on the same side as right wing Bush lovers. Thanks a lot, Children of Men!

Here is an example of a review that annoyed me: “If you want liberal propaganda, watch this film. If hippies make you puke, watch something intelligent instead.”*

Here is a review I agreed with: “The whole time I was watching this movie I could not help but think how impossible this premise is since we are mamals and according to Darwin there is genetic abnormalities that allow the species to continue.
I got the same feeling from watching “The Day after tomorrow” as being impossible.

The production budget was 75 million and they only took in 35 million for a reason. This is not art house material, but the same “the government is evil and society will break down in the future” non-sense.
Yes the camera work is good and the colors look great on HD, but still can not make up for the ridiculous premise. It reminds me of a theory term paper where we say, what would happen if all women could no longer could have kids then went on for 15 pages on the aftermath of the ending of the species. Very Sophomoric

If you want an apocolyptic London movie that’s somewhat believable watch “28 Days later”. Or if you would like to go in the fantasy realm watch “Escape from New York”.

If you want a depressing drama, still skip this because the ending is very very boring and unsatisfying.”*

Perhaps my lack of experience watching action movies didn’t really prepare me for this one. It was very violent. The inside of the prison reminded me of a scene from Shindler’s List only luckily this was at least fake. I don’t think I have heard that much gunfire in my life. That isn’t the reason I didn’t enjoy it however. It just didn’t seem to go anywhere. The whole premise of children no longer being able to be born, while an interesting concept, is a little ridiculous. I don’t believe with all of the technology that this could ever happen unless it was some government based plot and still it seems unbelievable. There are interesting things they could have done with the premise, but instead they took it in a very different direction. Oh and that ending *SPOILER ALERT!* you really expect me to believe on baby on some weird Human Project island really marks hope for a new future? It doesn’t cover any of the underlying issue and who’s to say that they don’t just kill that baby anyway? Not a fan.
In other news I went to New York City last Friday with Kalani and The Mrs. and I had a really good time. I took all the pictures on The Mrs.’s camera so hopefully I can get those on Flickr soon.

So I guess I should mention that I will not be getting into college. It seems that once you take a class at another school even if you don’t complete them and even if you don’t want credit for that class you have to apply as a transfer student. So until I get 24 credits at the community college I took one class at last summer I can’t attend a university. I don’t even know what to say about this right now. I just really wish I wasn’t at work when I found out. Sorry. I mean’t to write more, but I just can’t.

Also, more reasons why I’m a feminist.

Today I filled out and sent in my college application. I also faxed over the transcript request to my old high school. I did not take the SATS so I don’t have that to do. Hopefully I get excepted. My fingers are going to be crossed for the next couple weeks until I find out. I also need to get my FAFSA done and sent in. I’m excited and nervous. This will be a good thing. Everyone needs to start somewhere, right?