I decided to be part of The Great Interview Project. I am really enjoying it! I was interviewed by Victoria of The Prophesaur. You guys should sign up if you haven’t already!

V: After visiting your site, and the one before, and the one before, I found that you’ve been blogging since December of 2004. I thought starting a blog would be a lot of fun, but I remember feeling that I didn’t have anything to say to the world that wasn’t already being said, so that kept me away. Did you ever feel that way about your contribution to the web? If so, what got you out of that mind set and onto my computer screen?

It’s actually been since December 2003. I can’t wrap my head around the fact that I have been telling the internet all my business for that long. I definitely feel that way about my site. I have a very small readership despite my best efforts to get out and read more blogs. I have had a really hard time getting comments back even from smaller blogs. That is hard sometimes because it makes me feel like my writing isn’t good enough or they have read something about me they don’t like. I actually started blogging through Xanga because a friend from High School used it and begged me to join. I started off with little stupid entries about nothing and something about it felt right. It’s really the only long-term hobby I have ever been able to stick with.

V: Among your current blog categories, Same As It Ever Was leads the pack with 104 entries, while Schmoosh comes in second, boasting 54 posts, and both Aspirations and Obsessions are tied at a close third with 43 blogs in each. It’s so great that the every day still takes center stage, but I love the fact that you have so many posts that just don’t fit neatly anywhere else! I want to ask you though, how often do you find that your Aspiration posts and your Obsession posts overlap? So many times in my life my goals become obsessions or vice versa, is it the same for you?

It’s true! They do often overlap. I try to keep everything in it’s appropriate category so I can find it more easily later on and also see what I am talking about too much and not enough. I try to keep obsessions for things that rule my mind, but aren’t too important and my aspirations for things I want to do with my life. I have honestly not been focusing on many goals except college right now. I feel like I might be in school for a very long time!

V: Your blog has a side section titled “Wanting” in which you show a few of the handmade bits you’d like to have and to hold. Since you are into the whole handmade (me too) I thought that perhaps you’ve tried your hand at the handmade thing a time or two. So, is there a scary three armed sweater or a two headed sock puppet in your closet or did you find a hidden talent for a craft of any sort?

That is such a great question! I am terrible TERRIBLE at crafts, but I have tried to make a few things. Once I hand stitched a hideous purse out of weird elephant fabric and actually took it with me to school in 7th grade. Someone said to me, “You’re actually using a purse you made?” and the made sounded like she had said herpes. That was the last time I ever carried it with me. I have also made a very ugly scarf. The rest of my creativity is stuck to painting and necklaces and while they aren’t fabulous I like them so I suppose that is enough.

V: You promote helping bunnies on your site and have a pet rabbit as well. How did you come to care so much for the hoppy little ones? Are there any other causes dear to you?

I honestly don’t know. I think I am just a weirdo and think bunnies are just about the cutest thing ever. Then I became obsessed with other people’s bunnies and helping out various rescues. Eventually I gave in and got one of my own. It’s been fabulous. I LOVE everything about rabbits. I do have a lot of causes that are near and dear to me. I used to have an I Support page. I would say that women’s rights are most important to me because that does encompass a lot of different causes.

V: You watch Grey’s Anatomy. You watch Grey’s Anatomy?

I know! I am such a dork with my one TV show. I do get completely obsessed when I watch something. Before Grey’s it was Gilmore Girls.

V: So much of life focuses on what we want to be doing, what we should be doing, what we aren’t be doing. What are you doing well?

Oh goodness. You know, I do focus most of my attention on what I should do and what I want to do. What am I doing well? I think I am doing a pretty good job at making my current relationship a lot stronger and more balanced than my previous one. I hope I am doing well with that. I would also say school. I think I am doing well in college and I am trying really hard.

V: If you had to sum up your whole life in one word, because, I don’t know, because the sky is raining puppets, what would that one word be?

Unexpected.

V: Okay, I’ve mentioned puppets twice, what’s up with that?

Hmm…perhaps you subliminally equate me with a Muppet’s character?

V: What do you do with your hatemail? I’m assuming that after 3+ years of blogging, you’ve gotten some. I’m eagerly awaiting my initiation into hatemaildom!

You know? I actually like it. It reminds me that some people have many more problems than I do. I have yet to get one that truly upset me.

V: After my horrible interview skills, you don’t suppose you’ll be my first hatemailer, do you?

Ha-ha! No way! Your questions were very thoughtful and inventive! Thanks for making this so much fun!

Thanks for entertaining me and the masses!

It is cold here today and raining a little bit. So when a local stretch of highway was closed it was natural to assume the cause. It was ice, of course! It is true that the roads here were icy and there were a few accidents.

I heard from my cousin who heard from my aunt that they were cleaning up body parts on the road. However, it wasn’t from an accident it was from a MURDER!

I took this as gossip, but interesting gossip.

My mom complains I never talk to her. (I feel she doesn’t really want to know anything about me, but whatevs.) So I tell her this latest bit of news. Body parts on 80! Lunacy! BUT roads are good so I should have no problem getting to school.

THEN! My mother tells me that is NOT TRUE! Then who told me? Well my aunt is full of it. Don’t I think the news would be there? Wouldn’t they have sent the ambulence company? Body parts all over the road. Ridiculous. Then she told my dad and one of my coworkers what I had said and basically implied it was the stupidest thing she had ever heard.

SO I go to the store to get my dad a drink. When I get back to the office I tell my cousin about my mom and geeze why can’t she just enjoy the gossip without having to blow up my spot?

My cousin gets mad at the thought of people thinking her mom just made this up so she LINKS me the NEWS STORY!

YOU GUYS!!!!!!! It’s totally true! I emailed the news link to my mom and dad and tried to process. They found human body parts by the side of the road about 6 miles from my house.

It’s insane! I called Kasey and told her and she was super freaked. Then we were marveling at the fact that she drove by that very spot today before the body parts were found. She drove past human remains! It’s too much!

Maybe it’s too much for you to believe either? Here is a link to the insane news story.

In other news for today The ex Mrs. was taken to the ER today with severe back pain and pain shooting down one of her arms. If I know anything about her it is that she doesn’t go to the hospital unless it is 100% an emergency so I am really concerned and I don’t really know what to do with that concern. It’s kind of scary.

My scary paper was turned in on Monday and I will (hopefully) be getting the grade back on Wednesday.

Yesterday I had to go into the local gas station to get some things for work. It is the same gas station where my ex’s mom and sister work. Usually this isn’t a big deal. Her mom is nice enough to me and I am out in a few minutes. I even had a brief conversation with her sister once. All fine. However, yesterday was a little different because the baby was their. The baby that used to be my niece. It’s amazing how quickly babies grow. It has been eight months since my break-up and she looks so much bigger. She looks so much older.

She turned 3 in August so she’ll be 4 before I know it. She looked at me twice, but didn’t recognize me, which is good…I guess. I am glad because I think it makes it less confusing for her if she doesn’t see me anymore and I know Hanna has been told that I am, “all done” so I don’t know how it would be for her to see me again. On the other hand it really hit it home for me that she will never remember me. I only knew her for the first 34 months of her life. She won’t remember that. So it’s hard. I miss her. I miss all of them.

I will always miss hearing Hanna say my name and the way she danced with me. I will miss going down the slide with her at the park and they way she looked when I put my Uggs on her. I hope I remember that stuff enough for the both of us. The way she felt when I held her in my arms for the very first time and how amazing it was to hear her say my name for the very first time. They day I thought she could handle having a balloon and it made her crazy and we had to let it go. Hearing her say, “It blew away” over and over again.

I think that is (for me) one of the hardest things about breaking up. You lose this whole other family that you used to have. It’s so weird. It’s strange to bump into people you used to live with and see everyday and feel like a stranger. Not to mention feel like they think terrible things about you.

I think we can all agree that breaking up sucks. This is my first one so I guess I have a lot to learn.

I actually did have a break-up once before, but we were both 15 and I broke up with him in the cafeteria at lunch and afterwards we sat next to each other and snuggled because we were weird like that. Plus we had only gotten to second base once and I don’t think it is even comparable to my current situation.

I used to be really upset with all my friends for not supporting me, but I am starting to let go of that also. I am realizing that it is not really their fault. It’s easy when you only know half of the story and truthfully I am better off now than I was then. So it’s fine.

I recently opened up about the entire thing to my friend, Kyle after some pressing and, of course, that damn paper needed to be proofread. It was surprising and really went better than I thought it would. That helps too. I guess it’s all a learning experience.

It didn’t go as badly as I thought it would and I didn’t pass out. The teacher did mention that I looked very nervous though. My partner was BOMR who has turned into BOML as some bitch took my seat in between him and SALG (who still seems angry, btw). BUT! Get this people, she carries a fake Chanel bag! What’s up with that? Sullen + Angry + Rude (does NOT!) = Chanel.

So he was nice and said very sweet things after reading my paper, but then again who would read the paper and be able to be mean? I’m having someone else who I think could still offer changes read it over just to be sure.

Today I was going to go to the Post Office to pick up mail for work and instead I went home for a quickie. People! It was great. What a fine way to break up the work day. I felt a little like a hooker afterwards though as we both had to redress quickly and she drove me back to work. Still! It was nice. We also had sex twice yesterday so I am in a really good mood. If you know anything about my sex drive it has been often said to be the same of a guy so the more the better!

What else? Oh! (While I am uncommonly writing about sex anyway) I used to not give a damn about my breasts because they weren’t very sensitive and them being touched didn’t really feel good. So if the person I was sleeping with wanted to touch them, fine. If not, great. Now, I don’t know if this is something that changes with age or what, but lately my breasts have felt FANTASTIC! I want them to be touched all the time! If these are the types of changes I have to look forward to with the beginnings of age keep them coming!

I finished the 1st draft of my paper to be turned in today. It is VERY intimate. I am so nervous about having a classmate read it. I can’t even believe that I am about to let a stranger proofread something that I would probably only let two very close friends read. I may begin to hyperventilate. I wouldn’t even be surprised if I ended up just saying that I forgot my 1st draft and lost points. THAT is how very nervous I am about this paper.

We were supposed to write about an important day or night in our lives that surprised us. I thought about it and thought about it and wrote and rewrote. Finally I came out with a retelling of the night that my last relationship ended. I have never felt this nervous about turning something in before or felt this exposed. To this date it is the most honest and uncensored piece of writing I have ever done.

So…think good thoughts about me today!!!

I will surely need them.

Yesterday was Kasey and I’s 6 month anniversary! Can you believe that? Things have changed so much. I have changed so much.

Hello loves! I have a wee present for you all today. Who wants to hear my girlfriend singing me a song?

Kasey was home sick yesterday and spent the day finishing a song she was writing for me. It is a gift for our 6 month anniversary. She is shy so the video is highly protected. It can only be viewed by those listed as family/friends. So if you want to view it go to YouTube and add me as a friend. I don’t think you will be disappointed as it is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard. She was sick with a bit of a raspy voice when I recorded it, but I think she sounds perfect.

The song title is “Fairytale” and if you know anything about me it is that I do not enjoy most fairytales. I find them insipid and mostly ridiculous. This song is perfect. I takes my breath away.

Here is the link to the video!

I’m not sure if that link will work if you aren’t on my friend list so you may need to use this one to add me.

Sorry to gush, you guys! Remember to leave me a comment somewhere so I know how to get add you to my safe list.

Our actually anniversary is on Wednesday and we are celebrating on Friday with the classic dinner and a movie. My gift to her is not nearly as awesome as writing her a song I am afraid.

I have also been trying to create a book of my blog, but the software keeps telling me my user name/password combination is incorrect, but here I am typing to you so how can that be?

edit: It seems the application is for WordPress.com and not WordPress.org, which is what I use. Oh well!

I was hoping to do my movie post by today, but I wanted to have seen just one more movie first. I thought I might see that this past weekend, but it just was not happening. I might put it together anyway because I have seen plenty of new movies, but we’ll see. I’m seeing The Bucket List on Friday. Perhaps that will kick off the 3rd batch of movies?

I have to write a 2 - 4 page paper today. The rough draft is due Thursday and I really want to have put some work into it. I don’t want it to be a paper I just threw together. I want it to be great and I would love to get an A. We’re supposed to start the paper in the middle of a dramatic moment then pull away and show the events leading up to it and after it. I really have to think about what day I am going to choose. I mean…I have an event in mind. Though, do I really want to go there in my first week of class? Can’t I have a surprising epiphany that doesn’t involve the ending of my relationship? Or…other hot button issues? I will certainly think about it. We were given examples. I will have to look them over.

This morning I was supposed to have a meeting with my French teacher. He assigned the dates and one of the kids in the class was like, “but that is Martin Luther King day. We don’t have any school.” Then he replied, “Well, I will be here so we will have the meeting.” Whatever. My meeting was for today at 9:40 a.m.

So…cut to this morning. At Kasey’s urging I called his office. No answer. On the course description he handed out it had his home number. So I figured why not. I called him. After several rings her picked up sounding groggy.

Me: Hello! This is Angela from your French Class. We had a meeting today scheduled for 9:40?
Crazy French Teacher: Huh? There is no school today. It’s a holiday!
Me: No, I know that. You said you were going to have the meetings anyway.
CFT: Well you see if school is canceled due to snow or something we could still have the meeting because the secretary would be there. Today is a national holiday. The school is closed. No secretary! We can’t have a meeting today.
Me: (in my head: Uh?! Why the hell wouldn’t you say that in class when we brought it up! Why would you say you were going to have the meeting anyway?!) out loud: …so in class on Wednesday we will reschedule our meeting?
CFT: Uhh…yeAH. (You know that snotty tone of saying yeah that goes up at the end? That one.) *CLICK*
Me: …

Unbelievable. It’s a good thing I called before I left. I would have been PISSED!

I don’t know if it is apparent yet that I am trying to post on every single weekday, but I am. As you can probably tell because I usually try to get as many comments as possible before letting an entry die and now I am just letting them go.

I borrowed *cough*stole*cough* this one from Rhi in Pink because it seemed really interesting and heck an entry is an entry!

MOUTHOLOGY

1. Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant? White Castle
2. Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Yeah…I have a lot. Don Pablos, Chilis, the Japanese restaurant in EPCOT and Buddakan are my tops.
3. Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? Usually around 20% more if they are great less if they aren’t.
4. Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? I think I could get sick of anything…fruit though. I love fruit.
5. Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice? I like supreme, but I am not a fan of pizza.
6. Q. What do you like to put on your toast? I don’t really like bread either.

TECHNOLOGY

1. Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer? A picture of Kasey and I on the ferry in Philadelphia.
2. Q. How many televisions are in your house? A lot. I believe there are seven in total.

BIOLOGY

1. Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed? Right.
2. Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Nope. I am still intact.
3. Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted? A computer that I needed to take to the repair shop.
4. Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Goodness. No.

BULLSHITOLOGY

1. Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? Actually, yes.
2. Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to? It’s pretty common knowledge that I am going to change my name. It seems to be heading towards being Angela Breckman. Who knows though, maybe I’ll only change my first name.
3. Q. What color do you think looks best on you? Red.
4. Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Not by mistake. If you catch my drift.
5. Q. Have you ever saved some one’s life? I don’t think so.
6. Q. Has someone ever saved yours? In a quiet way, yes.

DAREOLOGY

1. Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? Umm…I kiss a member of my same sex multiple times a day, though if you would like to give me $100 I would be glad to take it.
2. Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? I tend to be very honest with these things so…yes. I would like to pick the finger though.
3. Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000? I’ll have to get back to you…I mean…If I lived to be 90 years old that would be under $800 a year. I think I would pass.
4. Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? Of course! I bet all those guys into big women would be all over it. Contact my agent.
5. Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? No. I am all over hot sauce. I put it on everything. So drinking it would seriously burn and I would probably never want it again. Plus a grand would by me nothing. Not even the new MacBook Air (Seriously! Have you guys seen this shiz?)
6. Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000? Yes. Hands down. Sorry guys! I’m being honest.

DUMBOLOGY

1. Q: What is in your left pocket? No left pocket. Darn this skirt!
2. Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie? Never seen it.
3. Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house? Both.
4. Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower? Umm….I stand. I didn’t know this was optional.
5. Q: Could you live with roommates? I have in the past and I would again. I love living with someone else though next time I would like it to be just me and my girlfriend.
6. Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own? I don’t know…like 10 perhaps?
7. Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops? Does that time I sped away count?
8. Q: What do you want to be when you grow up? Awesome.

LASTOLOGY

1. Q: Last Friend you talked to? Kyle
2. Q: Last person who called you? My hot girlfriend.
3. Q: Person you saw? Coworkers.

FAVORITOLOGY

1. Q: Number? 7 and 19. My birthday!
2. Q. Season? I like them all for different reasons.

CURRENTOLOGY

1. Q: Missing someone? Not at the moment. I’m content.
2. Q: Mood? Happy!
3. Q: Listening to? My boss talk to the computer guy.
4. Q: Watching? My computer screen.
5. Q: Worrying about? I have to go to the bathroom!

RANDOMOLOGY

1. Q: First place you went this morning? Kasey took me to get breakfast early this morning because I couldn’t sleep.
2. Q: What can you not wait to do? Go out tonight!
3. Q: What’s the last movie you saw? I am Legend. (Movie post coming up.)
4. Q: Do you smile often? I smile enough.
5. Q: Are you a friendly person? If I like you I am plenty friendly.

Woo!

Tonight Kasey and I might do a double feature. We are seeing the 7:00 p.m. showing of 27 Dresses and then we are thinking of seeing the late showing of another movie. I have seen a bunch since I did my last post though so Monday should greet you with a movie post. Fun!!!!

So my first week back in school is over. It went fairly well. I’m so nervous when starting out in a new situation. It’s unreal. I don’t think I posted my new schedule yet. Here is is:

• Psychology of Women - Tuesday nights 4:20 p.m. - 6:30ish p.m.
• French 1 - Monday and Wednesday 8:00 a.m. - 8:40 a.m. and Thursday 10:00 a.m. - 10:40 a.m.
• English Composition - Monday and Wednesday 9:00 a.m. - 9:40 a.m. and Thursday 11:00 a.m. - 11:40 a.m.

One thing that is kind of neat is my mom (who is a senior at my same college) has the same class schedule as I do M, W and Th so we can carpool.

Hopefully I can get on friendly terms with some people in my new classes. I’m not a fan of the one girl I sit next to in English Comp though. She seems to be one of those angry loner types. The class has big tables in a horseshoe pattern. Each table fits three people and I sit in the middle. She is to my left and there is a quiet boy to my right who smells lightly of cigarettes. Let’s call her Slightly Angry Loner Girl*, shall we? SALG never smiles. I know it is awkward to just smile, but sometimes it happens. Sometimes the teacher says something, you make eye contact with someone else…you smile. She doesn’t smile. She also never looks my direction. We share a table! I mean I have glanced towards her before while getting situated and ready. I have been reading with the eye contact smile and proper greeting. “Hello! My name is Angela! Nice to meet you SALG!” The thing that really irked me (and maybe this is really just me) but today she had to hand me a packet. She handed it to me (WITHOUT EVER TURNING TO LOOK AT ME) and I said, “Thank you!” (cause my momma raised me like that, yo) and NOTHING! She didn’t say anything back!

I almost said something as I would normally do, but I have a whole semester of possibly sitting next to SALG and I think it would be best to just shut up. I passed the packets to the boy on my right (holding out for a nickname) and he said, “Thank you”. Oh my heavens! Niceness! Did you hear that SALG? So, of course, I replied “You’re welcome!” (I talk with exclamation points). Then we shared a smile. Oh what a time we had! Our brief polite exchange. Why so snub, SALG?

I realize I shouldn’t make a big deal about this, but I make such an effort to be outgoing and friendly that the snubs really burn me. I’ll break her down! Maybe next class I’ll ask her a question! What will she do then?!

* Okay…so she could be just very shy and be a fan of bland colored over-sized hoodies. We could become the best of friends and laugh and laugh about this entry here. Perhaps she was even a cheerleader in HS! She just oozes meanness and self-hate. I’m just saying. When it comes to trading papers next Thursday I am turning to boy on my right. (BOMR?)

I have been collecting a few quotes from conversations between Kasey and I. Some are from a while ago and some are recent. I thought I would post them here.

Kasey - I don’t know if my do-rag is too tight but I am definitely getting drunk faster.

Kasey - Oooh!! If you tried to touch my eggs I would peck you!”

This is one I had at a club in Stone Harbor this past summer:

Me - “This isn’t even going to get you anywhere because I am a lesbian.”
Crazy Dance Guy - You need to move with me!
Me - “LESBIAN” said while pointing at myself
CDG - “This is what I do. This is how I live my life. I express myself through dance and the music.”
Me - “I am also leaving now, like right now.” I begin to try and move off the dance floor
CDG - “Let the music move you. Be free! This is how I live my life!!” As he follows me off the dance floor and almost out of the club.

Kasey - “He fell like that on purpose! He was tryin’ to get a little Corbin Blue up the wazoo, if you know what I’m sayin’” (While watching High School Musical 2. Is nothing sacred?!)

Kasey - “My dick feels like corn”
Me - “Oh baby! I’m going to shuck it.” (Sometimes we give each other different situations and ask what they other one would do. This is her seeing what I would do if she said the Dane Cook embarrassing sex line and the latter was my response. See! I am a polite girlfriend. I just go along with whatever gets thrown at me.)

Another thing we often do is make fun of large dogs and pretend to mistake them for horses. We often have these pretend scenarios where we pretend to actual say this to the god owner. Funny only to us I am sure.

Us - “What’s wrong with your horse?!?”
Owner of the Great Dane - “Uhh…What are you talking about? This is my dog.”
Us - “That’s an ugly ass doog!”

Me - “Creepy old man at 3:00″
Kasey - “Oh yeah. Weirdo.”
Me - “Is that 3? Maybe it’s more like 5.”
Kasey -”Really? I would say it’s 3 or perhaps like 3:30″
Me - “Yeah…maybe. I can’t believe that we just had this conversation”
Kasey - “I guess it would be 4:00″
Me - “I so love you.”

We also think of meaningless pranks we can preform on people and the horrified reaction the receiver of the prank is always the same. So we say the following a lot.

*Described nonsensical prank*
Consistent public reaction: “Who would do such a thing?!?”

Sometimes the horse/dog scenario works with other animals!

Kasey - “Holy crap! Look at all those sheep! Or maybe goats…”
Me - “Wow! They are definitely sheep. Who knew there were sheep around here?”
Kasey - “Yeah. Crazy.”
Me - “Or they might be really ugly dogs.”
Kasey - “What happened to your dogs?!”

Kasey - “I wish I had a big stick.”
Me - “Why? So you could poke her?”
Kasey - “Yeah.”
Me - “Babe!”
Kasey - “Lightly!”

Me - “What’s with virgins and handjobs?”