Head Under Water

I am pretty sensitive. If you met me you probably wouldn’t guess that about me. In group situations I am usually able to come off as tough, sure of myself and a tad outrageous. That’s why I chose my site tag line to be Surprisingly Fragile.

This hyper-sensitivity might make women’s studies seem like such a hard field for me to get into because a lot of what feminists have to deal with is so sad. I just feel like we can rise above that. I feel like the more women and men educate themselves and really open themselves up to the world around them the more changes can be made. I feel like women and men should get paid the same for the same job, even though they say we do and we still don’t. I believe that laws to protect women should be better enforced. I also believe that men should start to be more accountable for themselves as well as the acts of other men and be strong enough to stand up when they see something happening they know isn’t right. This article about a girl who was assaulted TWICE on a college campus while other men watched and CHEERED broke my heart. I agree with Anne Frank. I do believe, despite everything that goes on in the world, that people are generally good. I believe in the goodness of others. So I don’t believe that every single man watching that happen agreed with what was being done. This girl fought back. She fought back against a group of men and ran to freedom. I bet there were men that stood by and watched and were too scared to do anything about it. I don’t think that is excusable any longer. Even if it scares you. Even if you are shaking while you are doing it it is necessary to speak out about what is wrong.

I spent a long time being quiet. I didn’t want to stir things up and events in my last relationship made me feel like I would be a hypocrite if I spoke out for other women. I have found my voice.

Other things I read that have been breaking my heart?

I had a really hard time for some reason hearing about Finslippy. I cried all through that entry. I feel like sometimes the world makes things seem so hard sometimes. You want good things to happen to good people. There are too many people with children who don’t deserve them (case in point: the recent incident Loralee had with neighbors who allow their 9 year old access to porn) and good people who are having such problems getting pregnant.

I just…I don’t know. I didn’t write this to try and bring anyone down. I am thinking about all of you and the various troubles going on and the things I have read and I feel overwhelmed.

This is really resonating with my right now.